does it hurt to fall in love so easy

does it hurt to fall in love so fast.

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trying to move my life in the middle of all this shit. but what happens when there is nothing left to move, let alone gain? it's gone. Steelcase desk from 1955. Royal manual typwriter. mirror passed down to me ('cause I take care of stuff) from my great-grandmother.

little things.

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i'm out. peace. starting a new life. life lesson: don't trust me with anything.

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remember the last one was your last.

the book of love

it was about this time, 24 hours ago, when she said, after i had laughed at how comical she was taking off her pants, "I think we should break up."

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i continued to laugh it off, besides, we were going to fuck, but my amusement at this set something off that i wasn't aware of.

i wasn't laughing anymore, and she never was. my stray try at going down on her was met with a rude head butt. fair enough.

"I have nothing to give you, nothing to fill your life"

to which i was speechless. never met anyone who has made me branch out more, try and just love life period.

so she says this, but then. out. done. what do i do? contemplate life in the kitchen and try and sleep. the former successfully, the latter, not so much.

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i finally get up around noon, after hitting the snooze for an hour. she catches me in the bathroom, just as i go in and i'm shaking. i toss it off as being cold but reality is, i can't let go. and then i realize she doesn't remember saying that she dumped me.

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so....

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here we are now. i took care of the dogs. took care of her.

who takes care of me?