you lock the door and throw away the key

finally moved out of hotel living the beginning of this month. unreal. renting a room in this huge house 10-15 minutes from work off an ex-SAS guy. still trying to sort it all out. still going back and forth with the girl in Pittsburgh, for what reason i don't even know even more except perhaps it provides the only distraction i have outside of work. even poor excuses work for me now.

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there's someone in my head, but it's not me.

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i need a laptop. i can't do this sitting at work, trying to fill the hours that i have to be here (for no substancial reason).