things i lost along the way
i wish i had less to say...
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i've moved a lot in the last ten years. counting columbus, oh, there's four cities. i grew up in columbus, spent the most time (thus far) in pittsburgh, some years in madison, wi, and am now down in charlotte, nc. when i was young and stupid i had my own website, long since deleted because it was free and then they wanted $20/mth. so it went away. and then the lj. and myspace. and now, in sunny 2009, fb and twit.
things i've lost. moving is harsh, critical, and downright difficult if you don't do it right. i did the first few times, and then stopped caring. but along the way, i lost something. i'm not sure what, still trying to figure it out. maybe interest in my own past. or just trying to let it all go.
i used to make a list on the website, just a catalogue of my life. this is a catalogue of what i've lost. with no regard to time or place. it's not something i'm happy about, but i'm trying something new.
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what i lost:
my first real kiss: 1/1/94
my life: Labor Day, '98.
innocence: 9/11/01. it was't NYC but they evacuated Pittsburgh. still mindblowing having my class interrupted because of air raid sirens. 1950 all over again.
sorting thru my life, 2002. i packed it all up in boxes from Columbus and threw it in the basement. and then i threw it all out. wasn't easy, but who aside from the mom who doesn't give a shit really cares anymore about those drawings from preschool?
2004: moving your life five states away sucks. even more when you put 90% in storage.
lost: all Sega SMS, Genesis, PC, lots o' files, paintings, artifacts (all family related), sound system i spent over $1K on, speakers, kitchen stuff, good knives, tables, chairs, bed, clothes, and worst, depending on your perspective, my desk chair. i loved that piece of 1955.
and of course, books. my philosophy, religion, and english text are gone. no more Marcus Aurelius. no more multiple versions of the Bible. goodbye textbooks that provided countless hours of british poetry and literature.
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and yet, clearing the remains out last July made it all worth losing it all. no more storage, nothing left but that desk that i find a way to move everywhere.
but where's the chair...
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i've moved a lot in the last ten years. counting columbus, oh, there's four cities. i grew up in columbus, spent the most time (thus far) in pittsburgh, some years in madison, wi, and am now down in charlotte, nc. when i was young and stupid i had my own website, long since deleted because it was free and then they wanted $20/mth. so it went away. and then the lj. and myspace. and now, in sunny 2009, fb and twit.
things i've lost. moving is harsh, critical, and downright difficult if you don't do it right. i did the first few times, and then stopped caring. but along the way, i lost something. i'm not sure what, still trying to figure it out. maybe interest in my own past. or just trying to let it all go.
i used to make a list on the website, just a catalogue of my life. this is a catalogue of what i've lost. with no regard to time or place. it's not something i'm happy about, but i'm trying something new.
*
what i lost:
my first real kiss: 1/1/94
my life: Labor Day, '98.
innocence: 9/11/01. it was't NYC but they evacuated Pittsburgh. still mindblowing having my class interrupted because of air raid sirens. 1950 all over again.
sorting thru my life, 2002. i packed it all up in boxes from Columbus and threw it in the basement. and then i threw it all out. wasn't easy, but who aside from the mom who doesn't give a shit really cares anymore about those drawings from preschool?
2004: moving your life five states away sucks. even more when you put 90% in storage.
lost: all Sega SMS, Genesis, PC, lots o' files, paintings, artifacts (all family related), sound system i spent over $1K on, speakers, kitchen stuff, good knives, tables, chairs, bed, clothes, and worst, depending on your perspective, my desk chair. i loved that piece of 1955.
and of course, books. my philosophy, religion, and english text are gone. no more Marcus Aurelius. no more multiple versions of the Bible. goodbye textbooks that provided countless hours of british poetry and literature.
*
and yet, clearing the remains out last July made it all worth losing it all. no more storage, nothing left but that desk that i find a way to move everywhere.
but where's the chair...
posted by jersn at 1:25 AM
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