i never done good things

i never done bad things...i never did anything out of the blue...

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so a good friend of mine is getting married in a month. he called me the day that he proposed, back in November, and i was flabbergasted. what took you so long? and it made me happy, for an instant back then, as i was in a downturn of idiocy that i didn't get out of for another month or so.

but i finally made it to their website, detailing the wedding, proposal, how they met, etc, and while i'm still happy for them and all that, it makes me sad. and i guess the only explaination i can give is that i'm realizing i'm destined to love but never be loved.

i don't know anymore, i'm tired more than anything. i sleep for only a few hours then stare at the ceiling until the alarm goes off. yet i'm more productive than ever. work is good, i just have no personal life.

so.