hard sun

pissed.

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but what's the point complaining about it?

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been reading my LJ posts...nine years down the road and while there are moments of clarity, i'm seeing that the 25 year old self has no clue in regards to the 35 year old self.

i'm fairly certain that my 45 year old self will say the same. we are all so ignorant.

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in between it all i just feel lost.

living at my brother's house.

walking the kids to the bus stop.

email and phone calls.

wondering what the point is.

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for some reason i keep on thinking of the time in Wall, SD. sitting on the side of the bed, relaxed, and texting the message that i am the happiest man in the world, because i am where i want to be with the girl i want to be with.

twelve months later i didn't even want to hear her name.

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