the breathing stops, i don't know when

in transition once again.

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i made a bet with myself that my mom wouldn't go through with seeing me today. seems i owe myself something.

maybe the worst thing i've ever experienced in my life. i feel like my entire body is falling into itself, collapsing into a pit of nothingness.

i've gone through bad breakups before, yet the sum of them don't compare to how much this hurts, how empty i am.

there is nothing left.