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i do love the new phone. it's almost as good as a real pc.

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i do feel lost sometimes, mainly when my staff decides to listen to soft pop instead of mexicali gangsta hip hop or just the hispanic radil station. the idiocy of the songs that i grew up with and are now considered "classics", like anything by phil collins or tina turner, just irks me. i heard "take me home" (collins) today and i can't get it out of my head. i was setting up saute and it came on, and my mind just got taken over. i went up and down to the walkin twice because of that song.

it's irritating, though, because i'm going to invest all this time in these guys for nothing. the company's gonna move me on and all it't going to prove is that i can control the situation. but i guess maybe that's the point.

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i am, in a way, moving on. my old chef in NYC said the night out with my x and her boi was short, indecisive, and to the point. i found this all out while talking to him after i put a deposit down on a place that is seven blocks away from work. he himself was at a loss, simply because she said she never talked to him regularly and that she never really did all those things to herself earlier this year. i laughed, because this is the way it goes.

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so i did make this investment, and i told them my credit sucks, and it's not a worry. shortest app i've ever filled out. one page, double spaced. and i've got a view of the skyline (from an angle).