i sleep in your bed tonight

but i never find you home.

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i'm back in the same mode, existance, but with a twist where i do try and take care of myself. the insanity of this year has forced me into it. you don't grow younger.

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you're givin' me crooked answers
i'm crackin' your little code

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one of our j-1s asked me how i like it here tonight, and luckily it was before i got into the idiocy that she lost intrest. the x doesn"t even pop into my head these days unless there's something that pertains to her situation, which is rare. but it still happens. i realized that a year ago we were looking at places to live and it just broke me down. we ended up in a apt that i had looked at two years befoe and had wanted but was rented the next day. but i still had it, at least for a while.

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i"m learnin' another language
so full it's about to explode

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i'm done. tired. 32 and spent. out.